Tilt; Knowing What's Good for Me

Yes, I've been through this many times but I keep falling back to it. If I ever want to get anywhere in life, (especially with my ambitious dreams), I need to get out of my comfort zone. That means I need to stop playing video games and the like. It doesn't matter what video game either. I may be tilted as I write this and sleep deprived, but this does hold truth to it. This is almost equivalent to getting your heart broken and you still choose to fall in love with that person/ the wrong person.

I also hate the concept of tilting. Sure it's always been there, like slumping in baseball or basketball. It's all in the head.

One positive thing to note about this is I like to see other people succeed and reach their goals. I've always liked to see other people happy. Hence why I'm leaning towards being a counsellor of some sort....Then again I also really liked playing League of Legends too, but I've been playing with the wrong people when I've been wanting to take it further. Besides, it's rarely fun anymore playing with them. I hate to say it, but the truth hurts. The negatives outweigh the positives and it's dragging me down. Even though they're my friends, is it really beneficial for the group or even myself?

Don't. Stop doing this to yourself.

Eventually... I hope soon I quit video games and actually have a consistent sleeping pattern... It's a process, I know.

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I keep saying I know; well if I know, then why don't I do it?

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