-Miguelmente-

-Holy Saturday- I'm still in my pajamas. I had the intention of doing nothing today, and that's what I (almost) pulled off. I say almost because I (obviously) did something, just nothing productive.  So what did I do today? Well... I laid in bed, probably until around noon. Then I got out of bed and ate oatmeal, then sat on my couch in the living room and watched the Cavs vs Pacers playoff game. Halfway through the game, I decided to go back to bed and watch the game from my iPad. [I still prayed the Novena (2nd day)]. After the Pacers lost, I continued to lay in bed, just thinking about nothing really. I watched a few Youtube Videos, which is a bad habit I've had recently, watching on my iPad in bed. Once I got out of bed again, I finally washed my face + etc. When my mom saw me she asked if I was depressed, but I replied with 'No, I told you two days ago I planned to do nothing today.' But I think it's kinda true, I'm not exactly depresse...

Wednesday April 12, 2017  ~ Today I woke up feeling a little sad. Or have I been like this for awhile? It’s hard to tell. Is it my perceived lack of sleep? Is it my status/position in life? Is it because I don’t have too many friends? Is it because I find everybody around me “fake”? Is it all the above? I don’t know. I mean, I’m writing this as recently I submitted photos to the model agency I’m a part of and they provided a lackluster response, being vague with the specifics that they want. It’s nothing to be too upset about, especially since I’m able to re-send other photos (they didn’t like the photos where you couldn’t see my face). But once I received that email, it killed my vibe even more. I was studying at UBC for the first time with a girl and I really wasn’t feeling the conversation or anything afterwards. Maybe she felt the same. Hard to tell but gotta play it out I suppose. ~~ I am currently writing this on the bus on the way back home. ...