Some things as of late + My first UBC visit

Wednesday April 12, 2017

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Today I woke up feeling a little sad. Or have I been like this for awhile? It’s hard to tell.

Is it my perceived lack of sleep? Is it my status/position in life? Is it because I don’t have too many friends? Is it because I find everybody around me “fake”?

Is it all the above?

I don’t know.

I mean, I’m writing this as recently I submitted photos to the model agency I’m a part of and they provided a lackluster response, being vague with the specifics that they want. It’s nothing to be too upset about, especially since I’m able to re-send other photos (they didn’t like the photos where you couldn’t see my face).

But once I received that email, it killed my vibe even more. I was studying at UBC for the first time with a girl and I really wasn’t feeling the conversation or anything afterwards. Maybe she felt the same. Hard to tell but gotta play it out I suppose.

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I am currently writing this on the bus on the way back home. I already prayed the Rosary. I actually don’t mind this particular long bus ride.


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Thursday April 13, 2017    Holy Thursday

I am writing this on the newly installed 'park benches' beside the Cafeteria in Langara. Interesting setup.   Waiting for 2pm to strike to meet my poetry professor.

This morning was quite the struggle getting out of bed. My mind was somewhere else (And still is). I'm not focused, I'm tired.

I just want one day where I do absolutely nothing but just rest. Counterproductive for sure, but I'm sure it'll help me get back on track. 

Even though I didn't do as much in school as I wanted to this past term, I did a whole lot of other things which drained me both physically and mentally. Slowly I began to wear myself down.


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Random things.

- I got into a habit of cutting and pasting files from my computers to my hard drives. Well it finally bit me as a folder containing data more than just my poetry performance got corrupt and deleted. I didn't have another copy of those files as I straight up cut-pasted.  Disappointing.

-Back at it with the homie Al again, I recorded our freestyle session. We're just amateurs atm, but we got mad love for the game of rap and hip-hop. Don't sleep on us

-I feel like Langara is the place for me for now. At least until Sept 2018?
-Second guessing getting a degree in Psychology. Need to do more research and the like.

Fin.

Sit down, be humble.

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